Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Mr Merryweather and the Magical Meth Lab

Our incredibly talented friend Jay and his team put together the winning film in the Portland 48 hour film project!

Every team was given a type of film (i.e. silent, fantasy, western...etc). Theirs was a musical.

The elements that had to be included were:
Character: Brian or Briana Merryweather, Laboratory Technician
Prop: a picture frame
Line of Dialogue: "For crying out loud."

The following had to be done in 48 hours (none of this could be done ahead of time)

  • Writing the script
  • Rehearsing
  • Costume/Set Design
  • Shooting
  • Editing
  • Sound Design
  • Rendering
  • Outputting to tape or other media
It is an amazing feat, and they put together an amazing film. Enjoy:

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Kevin

"Um Dad, is Kevin another planet?"

No bud, it's a boys name

"What is Kevin like?"

Seriously kiddo, Kevin is a boy's name and I don't think you know anyone named Kevin. Is Kevin the name of a new kid in your class?

"No Dad! KEVIN! You know, where I'm going to go when I die?"

Oh Heaven...um...yeah, that's really more your mom's territory. You should ask her all about it when we get home.

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Whew...

Yay! Another cancer day done…another cancer-free appointment under our belt. One more down. I can’t believe it’s coming up on two year since the diagnosis…has it really only been two years? For Christ’s sake ‘Pre-cancer’ feels like a lifetime ago.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Ah sleep...

So, as I may have mentioned to just about anyone who will listen to me that Henry hates sleeping. I can't fathom why any rational person would hate sleep - but that may just be more proof that my youngest child is a little on the insane side.

I mean seriously, how could you hate sleep? It's wonderful! Not that I actually sleep - oh no. It's not that I hate sleep, it's just that I find it impossible to do sometimes. Insomnia is a fascinating thing - I would LOVE to sleep, really I would. I am so sleep deprived it's gotten funny. But on a night like tonight when my entire family is asleep in their own beds and I have the chance to sleep uninterrupted, am I sleeping? No.

It's interesting though, I have noticed that the worse my insomnia, the better Henry sleeps. See, if I were in bed, he would have been up once at least. As it is, he is sleeping peacefully in his own crib - not a peep out of him. What's been most fascinating however is that within 5 minutes of me heading into bed he is up and screaming. With the yelling - and so much screaming. How does he know? Seriously, it's a different time every night and sometimes he manages to get it in even earlier - I will simply mention to Dan that I am going to bed and he starts with the screaming. There has got to be a way to trick him though, one of these days I will figure it out. Maybe.

Sunday, July 05, 2009

Look who's walking...


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Originally uploaded by karijean.

In the last two weeks Henry has gone from a very efficient crawler to walking. The kid is fast already. Jesus Christ, I don't know why I was encouraging this. I think I'm kind of screwed. But he is cute!

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

On being 4 1/2

Ah Will – my sweet, sensitive boy. It can be so hard being almost 5. He is having a little bit of a rough time at school these days. His super best friend has found the company of other kids in class and doesn’t always want to play just with Will anymore. This is heartbreaking to my little boy. He is a really big hearted kid who makes sure everyone gets invited to join in with whatever he and his little crew are doing. But conversely, he gets SO crushed when one of his friends tell him they don’t want to play with him that day. And oh, its just the beginning of all of this and kids, they can be so mean. I see things in him and they make me so proud and worry for him all at the same time. Dan and I are trying to explain the whole friend thing and how you don’t have to play with the same people all the time, and can still be friends with them. He just seems insecure in it already. Dan and I were talking about it and in looking back I think there were times that both of us really felt that way. I hope as gets older he deals with it more like Dan did than how I did.

Growing up Dan would deal with that insecurity by just becoming the “cruise director” and making his own group rather than trying to fit into one already in existence. He’s good at it – it’s very easy to jump on board with what he has planned. I spent too much time feeling like I never quite fit into the group I was a part of. Not in a huge way, just slightly off and always just a little insecure that they would figure out that I was seriously not enough (cool, smart, talented, pretty, whatever) and everything would unravel from there.

Eventually I got to where Dan is though – people have told me that I kind of “collect” good people into my life and then share them with each other so everyone can be friends. This is probably fairly accurate, if a little cheesy. But I know I don't have those same feelings of insecurity the same way I used to. I think what I mean to say is that I know that I have found “My People”. These people that are my people… some I have known my whole life, others for only a little while. Some I talk to almost every day and some I’ve gotten the opportunity to reconnect with after many years. They live here in town and in Iowa and Minnesota and Michigan and New Mexico…but they are in my life and are my people. They have been with me for of some of the best and worst times in my life. I am so very lucky to have that. And I hope that Will can find that without too much heartache along the way. I would love to spare him some of that heartache, even if I know I can’t.

However, right now he is still my 4 1/2 year-old Will. And despite some of the current difficulties, the kid cracks me up. When we were at the zoo the other day he walked up to Dan and said:

"Daddy, Polar bears eat people. But I tell you what, I would NOT eat people”

Good to know he’s got that figured out at least.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Viral Video

Apparently I'm late to the game on this one (11 million+ views already) but this is super cute. Totally worth watching even if you've already seen it.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Homework

We have the boys in a daycare that we love. LOVE. Will used to go to a different one, but we were fortunate to be able to make the move to where they are now when he turned 3. (totally a fantastic story for another day) However, they are very organized. And I...am not. I used to be! Really! And then the Cancer and the Baby and the Sleep deprivation and the baby and now I can't keep track of anything to save my life. I have been finding myself re-writing the same lists over and over because I can't remember where I put the last one, and I was sure there was something I was supposed to do...

Anyway, with School. They send home letters from the teacher every once in a while - with, you know, things they want us to know, things the kids should be bringing in to the classroom. Most of the time those get read by us...and sometimes not. But this week, we got one and there was a homework assignment. Homework? Seriously? Already? Not to have a bad attitude about it already, but seriously. Will (aka Dan and I) were to type up an autobiography dictated by Will. They will be sharing these with the class tomorrow - but I thought I would share it here with you. So, Will "wrote" this entire autobiography:

My Story
by Will

My Name is Will. I live in a white house with my mommy and daddy and I love them. I also live with Henry, my little brother. I am 4 1/2 and he is 1. I like to play with Henry, have light-saber fights with my daddy, drawings pictures, watching movies and having snuggles with Mommy.

The End.

I don't think it is possible for me to love this kid any more than I do right now.

Friday, April 03, 2009

Photoblog: Random Winter 2009

My hope is some day to get these all into appropriate albums with the rest of the corresponding pictures from all of these events. But let's be honest...it doesn't seem very likely these days. Life has been good - but very busy. While Henry isn't walking yet, he is on the move. And that kid? He moves a lot more than his older brother did at this age. Also? still not so big on the sleeping. He just doesn't really like napping - I have tried debating with him the finer points of why napping is a good thing, but he usually wins with the screaming. But it is getting better at night - and that has to be a good thing all around.

In the last couple of months, we have had two birthdays, a few large gatherings, a beach trip, a weekend sleepover at a friend's house (that was me and the kids - while Dan was getting his drink on in a pub tour between here and San Francisco), and a visit from Nana. It has been an unusually busy late Winter/Spring and it has been really wonderful. Below are some of my favorites from the last 3 months and the rest of the random favorites are here - Winter 2009

Henry 1st Birthday

Beach Sword Fight1

Happiness

Thursday, April 02, 2009

Examples of things Will says now that I am going to miss as he gets older:

I think I do not like that tone of voice Mama. I may have to take away your book privileges.

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Hey Will – I totally love you!
Hey Mama – I told you (what he thinks we are saying when we say totally) I love you too.

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30 days?!? That’s like 100.
Well not really bud, 30 is a number and 100 is a different number
No Mama. I said 30 is 100. ONE HUN-DRED.

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Mama!! I did not know you were this powerful a Jedi!

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So, um, we are reading a chapter book at school about a twister. And Annie and Jack are in it and they try to escape to the serrerrr.

The serrerrr?

Um, yes. The serrerrrrr.

Do you mean the cellar?

Yes, that is what I said.

Monday, February 02, 2009

The TRUE greatest snack stadium ever built...

arrived at our Super Bowl Party this year. Really, you must click on the link for the whole story:

Greatest Snack Stadium


Thursday, January 29, 2009

1 year down...

So, it's been one year since Dan's last chemo treatment. I was talking about this with a friend last night and I said I couldn't believe it had been a year already. She said she couldn't believe it had only been 1 year - that it seems like it was a decade ago. I see it both ways - it seems like it happened in a different life, to a different me. But at the same time it is present every day in my thoughts. And when you think about something every day like that, you sometime miss the passage of time. I think this last year has fundamentally changed how I am wired. I used to be almost aggressively extroverted - needing the energy of other people in order to thrive. Life is a lot quieter now I think. I find myself re-energized by time with our little family or an evening along with a good book and a glass of wine. It's not that I've completely gone to the other side of the spectrum - just balanced out a lot more. Henry is a child that experiences a great deal of separation anxiety it seems - he does not like to be left alone in a room. Ever. Dan and I joke that it's because he takes after me - and it took me 25 years to figure out how to spend any time by myself, he's got time to figure it all out.

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Dan had his check-up yesterday and got another "all-clear" from the doctor. We now move to an every 3-4 month check up schedule instead of every 2 months. He has been in remission for 1 year. 1 year!! It feels really good to have the first year under our belts.

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I see the way this last year has changed both myself and Dan in subtle (and not so subtle) ways, but I sometimes miss the impact it has had on Will. He was so young, but the kid has a freaky memory and I forget that. The other day Dan was cutting his hair. He keeps it pretty short now so uses clippers. I don't know if Will just hadn't seen him cutting his hair in a while, but he started shuffling around the hallway like he wanted to say something, but didn't know how. Dan turned off the clippers and asked if everything was ok.
"Daddy, what are you doing?"
"Cutting my hair bud - see?"
and then, so very quietly and with a little catch in his voice
"Are you...are you feeling ok?"
Then, realizing that maybe the last time he actually saw Dan cutting his hair was when he had to shave it all off last year, Dan got down on the floor with him.
"Yeah bud, I feel great, really"
Will was still not looking up at this point
"Do, do you promise?"

And at that point, my heart broke a little. I wish he didn't have that fear, or that memory.

But time is moving forward - and our hope is that with every year we will be able to put more distance between that time and now. And hope that the fear will fade for all of us.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

25 random things

Cross posted with Facebook - I got this meme and while I don't often do them I thought it was kind of fun. It's hard to think about 25 random things - and harder when you aren't writing it for a blog where the people who are going to read it know at least your recent history, if not more. I'm not going to "tag" anyone - but if you want to do it do you should. It's an interesting writing exercise.
1) Today is my Birthday (well, pretty much yesterday at this point since it’s after midnight)
2) I never pictured myself being a mom to two boys. In fact, when I found out I was pregnant with the first one I kind of freaked out and told my friend Aggie she had to move to Portland because I didn’t know what to do with boys. Now I can’t imagine it any other way.
3) I miss singing. A lot.
4) I have learned that I am a terrible waitress. I don’t know how I managed to stay employed doing it for almost 2 years.
5) I was born with a problem in my hip. It used to be barely detectable. I have developed degenerative arthritis in it and now often have to use a cane. I will probably have to have it replaced in the next couple of years.
6) My senior year of college I think I may have spent more time in Mlps/St Paul than I did in Northfield. In retrospect, that may have not been the best thing for my grades.
7) I love heist movies. And heist television shows. It’s one of my guilty pleasures.
8) Another one? Young adult stories with a sense of the fantastical – Buffy, Happy Potter, The Pretties, even Twilight…I’m not ashamed, I love them all.
9) Despite the fact that we don’t know what we are doing the majority of the time, I am proud of the way we are raising our boys. They laugh a lot and know that they are loved.
10) I love that my oldest one has a wicked sense of humor and an incredibly rich imagination.
11) I got caught shoplifting when I was in 8th grade. They called my parents to come and get me – I still don’t know what I was more embarrassed by. The fact that my parents knew I had shoplifted, or the fact that what I shoplifted was several tubes of lip gloss and some eye shadow.
12) You know how they tell you when you are really upset to write a letter getting it all out and then throw it away? Once, instead of throwing it away, I sent that letter. I’m still sorry I did.
13) I moved halfway through my senior year of HS and have only been back twice since then. I’m looking forward to showing my family where I grew up some day.
14) After college I spent a couple of years “testing my boundaries”. I knew I didn’t want to teach (even though I had just finished a degree in music ed) so I pieced together jobs based on what the perks were. I waitressed (free food and often free beer), worked in a salon (free haircuts, makeup, products) and at the Ordway (free theater). I spent almost every night at Chang O’Hara’s closing the bar and dated guys in bands. Not the most constructive time, but generally a lot of fun.
15) When I graduated from High School my parents wanted me to use my graduation money for something commemorative, something I could keep and remember that time in my life. I bought a beautiful camera and 2 lenses. My first year out of college I had it stolen out of my car. This Christmas I got a new DSLR camera and am really enjoying photography again. On the weekends my friend Kari and I take photo walks for an hour in different neighborhoods and practice taking pictures. Not to sound super cheesy, but it’s a really wonderful way to slow down and look for the everyday beauty that surrounds you.
16) I binge read. I won’t pick up a book for a month or two and then when I find something I like I barely put it down until I’m done. This last week I found a 3 part series I liked and read all three books in 6 days.
17) The main reason I was able to do 16 is because my husband got me the best birthday present ever this year. He set me up in a super fancy hotel here in town and sent me on my way from 3pm on Saturday till a late check-out (thank you Leah!) of 1:30 on Sunday. There was a pillow menu, 24 hour room service (I ordered Crème Brule at 1:00 am) and an IPod Library. It was easily one of the most relaxing things I have done in a very long time.
18) I didn't have my first “real” kiss until I was 15.
19) When my insomnia is bad, I watch General Hospital. I started watching it when I was 14.
20) When I work out, in my head I move with the grace and agility of Sydney Bristow…even though I know that’s not reality, I’m still sometimes disappointed when I catch a glimpse in the mirror of how I really look when I exercise.
21) I was in Show Choir in HS. And despite the fact that our outfits were among the most hideous things you could imagine (tight black spandex top, weird halfway see-through layers of skirt and a sparkly belt!) we had a lot of fun.
22) My friend Kati said that she’s “digging the fact that she’s reconnected both superficially (you see my profile, I see yours) and more substantially” with some people here. I have to agree with that – having moved a few times I am enjoying feeling more connected to those who I haven’t had a chance to see in many years.
23) The town I went to college in was a small town with two colleges. And they were very different schools in many ways. Back then I would have never guessed that at this point in my life many of my closest friends and my husband would have gone to that “other school” across the river. It’s funny how we can all have gone to school less than 3 miles from each other and have so many memories involving the same haunts (the Rueb, Grundy’s, Goodbye Blue Monday), but never had our paths cross until years after we all graduated and moved away.
24) I have a freaky memory for musical theater. I can still remember almost every song from every musical I was in or studied in High School. My kids have had to put up with a lot of Sondheim at bedtime.
25) This last year and a half I have experienced very extreme highs and lows. I am so very grateful for the family and friends who helped carry our little family through the difficult times and shared in our joy. There were honestly times that I could barely stand to tell people what was going on because I felt like I was starring in my own personal Lifetime Movie of the week. But we are still standing on the other end of it – Dan is in remission, Henry and I are both healthy and show no lasting damage from the trials of his birth, and Will is a remarkable and loving little boy. I feel very lucky to have such a wonderful network of people in my life.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Another set of eyes

So I can't decide - A or B?

What I would like to do, I think, is cut back a little on the yellow-ish cast the low light tends to have, but I can't figure out how to do that without reducing the vibrancy of the blue and orange.

Does anyone know how I could do that?





Saturday, January 10, 2009

picture post

Here are a couple more from the new camera. It helps that I have cute subjects.



Also, had a "Parent of the Year" moment earlier this week. So, we have been stuck inside a lot for the last 4 weeks, and at times it had made us all a little stir crazy. In order to lighten the mood sometimes, when the boys are driving me insane, I have taken to threatening them that I am going to sell them all to a farm. This is usually met with a good deal of laughter and some animal noises. Will even seemed to get into it by threatening to sell Dan to a farm one when he was napping and Will wanted him to wake up and play.

It appears, however, that I was wrong my thinking. Yesterday Will told Dan on the car ride home that he would not like us to tease him about the farm anymore. It makes him nervous.
So, that made me feel awesome. Maybe it would go over better if I threatened to sell him into the Jedi order?

Saturday, January 03, 2009

post-christmas post

Such a wonderful, wonderful trip. Too short though and a few important people did not get seen and a couple strongly desired things did not get done. We need to get back more than every two years. We were thinking maybe for the Fair this summer... I love the 'Great Minnesota Get Together!". But sooner rather than later.
Here are a couple of pictures from the Holiday season. Since I got my new camera I am having SO much fun. My hope is to put a few on here often throughout the month as I get them edited and at the end of the month have an album on Flickr.